Spirals of Doom (or Goodness)
Moods are interesting to me. Specifically, the way that they spiral. For example:
Before I quit my job, Sunday nights were dangerous. At some point in the evening, I would realize that my precious weekend was ending and that soon I would be off to work again. Then I'd start thinking about how depressing it is that I can't enjoy my last moments of freedom because I'm dreading the future. As time went on I'd start getting depressed earlier and earlier. I assume that if I continued working there, by the time I got home on Friday, I'd already be in a bad mood.
Fortunately, it works the other way as well. Last night I starting thinking about how great my new job is for me. Then I remembered that it was Sunday night, suddenly I was even happier knowing that Sundays are so much less stressful. Then I thought about how many different ways life is better when you have a few good things going.
I've had lots of spirals in my life. Whenever I succeed at something difficult, I get extra confidence and I can't wait to tackle the next goal. When I fail, I lose motivation to do even the simplest task ("why should I even bother brushing my teeth, I'm just going to get cavities anyway").
I wish that I had some magic, easy way to break out of downward spirals. At the same time, I think the way to break out of them is easy to know, but very difficult to do. You have to realize what's happening first of all. Then give it to God. From there you just try to focus on the good things you have going and do things that you enjoy and are good at. Easy to say hard to do.
What about you? Have you experience spirals? What do you do to stop downward spirals?
Before I quit my job, Sunday nights were dangerous. At some point in the evening, I would realize that my precious weekend was ending and that soon I would be off to work again. Then I'd start thinking about how depressing it is that I can't enjoy my last moments of freedom because I'm dreading the future. As time went on I'd start getting depressed earlier and earlier. I assume that if I continued working there, by the time I got home on Friday, I'd already be in a bad mood.
Fortunately, it works the other way as well. Last night I starting thinking about how great my new job is for me. Then I remembered that it was Sunday night, suddenly I was even happier knowing that Sundays are so much less stressful. Then I thought about how many different ways life is better when you have a few good things going.
I've had lots of spirals in my life. Whenever I succeed at something difficult, I get extra confidence and I can't wait to tackle the next goal. When I fail, I lose motivation to do even the simplest task ("why should I even bother brushing my teeth, I'm just going to get cavities anyway").
I wish that I had some magic, easy way to break out of downward spirals. At the same time, I think the way to break out of them is easy to know, but very difficult to do. You have to realize what's happening first of all. Then give it to God. From there you just try to focus on the good things you have going and do things that you enjoy and are good at. Easy to say hard to do.
What about you? Have you experience spirals? What do you do to stop downward spirals?
Kyle on Mar 26, 2006 4:00pm
Its so true. When you were saying the things about the simplest tasks and how hard they can somethings become, it resonated in me. I know how that is and how some hard things can just expound on each other.
In a lot of ways, it helps to simplify life - to determine what the problem is and to give that to God. I am glad that you seem to be heading back in the upward direction!
Molly on Mar 26, 2006 4:00pm
hmmm... good thoughts. When I hit the Sunday evening hole (where have all the flowers gone?) I have to remember that not only does God have a plan for the future (distant), He has a plan for me on Monday morning at work. Live intentionally.
Molly on Mar 26, 2006 4:00pm
just so you know.. right after I posted that comment.. I was feeling a little, shall we say "bored"? with my job. Then... (go to my blog to read what happened) thesticklergirl.blogspot.com
flexnfx on Mar 26, 2006 4:00pm
...so what is your new job???
I understand about the Sundays...maybe it's cliche, but I always have to remember that there's a bigger picture and no matter how crappy work can be, you've gotta make it the most entertaining as possible...does that help? probably not, but I guess I work to live and not live to work...