i want to know who made up this absurd idea to wake up at 5:30 in the morning and then have the nerve to follow that up with working!!!

i just got a temporary job for a couple months doing assistant bookkeeping. i started on monday. and no matter what people say.... you dont get used to it after a while!! i am so drained all day long and have no energy for anything afterwards! im sure partly why i am so drained is because this type of work isnt necessarily my strengths! if any of you read my previous blog about jobs i like.... then you would know that i would rather not sit at a desk all day... i would rather not look at numbers all day... i would rather be talking to people all day..... and this job is exactly that. so it takes a little more out of me than some jobs. but its good for now and its what i need.

i remember back in california at school i had to be at the gym by 5:30.. (almost puking during karake class!) ... so i had to be up before 5am..... and that was in the winter so it was definately dark still... i did that for 5 months and it was just as hard every day! then we would go to school at like 7:30 or something..... everyday i either nearly fell asleep or i actually did! its just not meant to be! maybe some people like it feeling like crap all day long and dont mind feeling like you have a hangover.... and maybe some poeple just dont have as much trouble as me but as for me i would be in heaven if i had a job from 10-7 or something!!!

ok ok now dont think that i have forgotten what little babies do at 4am... i know they cry and that i will have to jump out of bed and nurture and feed my little bambino... but that is totally different!!! its a different kind of work.... i was just talking to my friend shekinah and we were saying that husbands have to work their whole lives while the wife doesnt necessarily have to.... but even though we have work of our own on the homefront that is hard.... its a different kind of hard.... and i would rather have "homefront hard" that is involving my children, than slaving at some job that you really dont believe in anyways... not that you cant get a job that you believe in... anyways.... i have rambled enough (=

all in all, I COULD NEVER WORK AT STARBUCKS!