Augustine Ezra Paul Bodeutsch came into our world September 3rd 2009 @ 6:38pm. he weighed 8lbs 10oz!! He was absolutely beautiful and precious. He lived less than one hour, but it was a beautiful hour that we enjoyed very much. He came and went so peacefully, it was truly a blessing.

The nurses brought him straight to my chest and never took him away from us. Justin and I were able to hold him and love him for a few hours. it was hard, but the whole experience was so lovely. There was the most beautiful sunset out our 14th story hospital room window while we were saying goodbye to him, it made things that much more peaceful. After three hours of being with him, we thought it was time to let him go. I didn't know how that was possible but somehow it was easier than I thought it would be. Two nurses came in and weighed him and took his footprints and handprints and dressed him up and took pictures of him... it was a nice transition time. after all that it seemed easier to let go. He just wasn't there anymore, it was just a body, his soul was in heaven. We gave him one last kiss and sent him away.

It might sound crazy, but we really were blessed by how everything happened. we are thankful to have had any time with him at all and thankful he didn't have to suffer. He simply went to sleep in my arms. What more could I ask for. Justin and I appreciate very much all the thoughts and prayers and messages we have received, we feel very loved and couldn't do this without you all supporting us. We are doing well considering. Dahlia and Valen are doing well too. Valen has no idea what is going on (he still thinks he can feel the baby kicking) and Dahlia seems to not be upset by it, just a little confused. We are looking forward to loving the two we still have here with us and seeing Augustine again someday in heaven.

No doubt God was and is holding us through this all, there is no way I could have had any strength on my own. I know there will be many hard days ahead, but as long as I can walk it with the Lord I will be OK.