things are kinda rough in these parts. ive got mastitis AGAIN! so we have decided to buy an electric breast pump and see if that makes a difference. he hasnt been eating very well lately. not latching comfortably and hasnt been eating very much. at his last appointment he hadnt gained a lot, but the doctor said not to worry as long as he is healthy and is gaining something. but i really think he is actually losing weight. his diapers fit different and he looks scrawny, so we will pump for a while so we can make sure he is getting all of my goodness. this pump we bought is awesome and sure beats manual pumping by a long shot!!

hopefully we can get him on a better schedule. this two times a night deal (sometimes three) is getting old real fast. i am so sleep deprived, i dont know how i function at all. justin was listening to a podcast about sleep and how much we need it to function properly. studies have been done to show that your brain doesnt work as well on little or no sleep. which is what i have been saying forever! (= so when new moms say they lost their brain during delivery.. it is true! i hopefully will get mine back before next summer (= if only dahlia would take naps, life would be so rosy (=