many tears are falling today

but it feels right, its a relief.

im not losing my hope

just feeling the pain that comes and goes with reality.

even in my weeping i feel strong

life will go on, my faith will carry me along.

some moments are overwhelmingly painful

while some are full of joy.

to love and to have lost is better than not loving at all,

so i am told.

but im afraid to love.

im afraid to grip this life

only to say goodbye.

but what a relief for this perfect child

to miss so much pain on this fallen world

what more could i hope for than for him to be free?

it seems selfish to keep him here with us.

what would he wish for?

what would his dreams be?