our last appointment we were able to see some 3-D pictures of our baby. they were really special. one of them in particular turned out really great. it really made me ok with letting myself bond with him and be excited to see him and not afraid of letting go. he is special and more dear to my heart than i thought possible! and by the way he looks beautiful!

i met with a friend of a friend yesterday who had gone through the same thing years ago. she was such a neat lady and i really thought it was helpful to talk with her. hearing her story and how she dealt with it all was encouraging and good to talk about.

justin and i are doing well. its been over a month and we have been able to process it all well i think. dealing with many emotions, but feel somewhat stable right now. enjoying life and looking forward to the future.