bundles and bundles of joy!
dahlia brings me so much joy!! i couldn't possibly exaggerate how amazing it is to be with her.... it would not be an exaggeration!! i just stare at her all day long and smile! she grows and learns and changes so much, so beautiful! when i am gone from her for a short time, sometimes even less than an hour... i am so excited to see her and have missed her so much. sounds ridiculous i know, but true(=
i never really wanted kids till a few years ago. after my sister had her first little girl, i was just so in love with her and wanted to see her all the time. she was so precious and beautiful i just couldnt not love her! i remember in high school saying that i would never have kids!! they were such a bother to me and all they ever seemed to do was whine and be bratty. which is funny cuz my mom loves kids and has worked with them for years. i certainly didnt share that same passion till now!
when justin and i first got married i was ACHING for a baby! every month i would cry when i wasnt pregnant... sounds absurd... but it was just such a big desire of mine that it hurt when i couldnt follow through with it, even if it wasnt best at the time. have you ever wanted something so bad and when it didn't happen you were sad? same here......i almost felt like i had lost a baby even though i never had one in the first place. furthermore i was going through a very emotional time the first few months of marriage so i am sure that contributed to the distress.
i remember a lot of people thinking it was a bit early to be pregnant since we had only been married 4 months, but it worked out fine for us and we are happy it happened that way. of course if we hadnt gotten pregnant we probably would have taken a nice long trip to hawaii this past summer. Which we will have to reschedule for some time in the next four or five years. (= but we really have no regrets and in no time there will be another sweetness to adore.... i dont know if we are going to be able to handle it! we can barely contain ourselves with dahlia!! (=
i never really wanted kids till a few years ago. after my sister had her first little girl, i was just so in love with her and wanted to see her all the time. she was so precious and beautiful i just couldnt not love her! i remember in high school saying that i would never have kids!! they were such a bother to me and all they ever seemed to do was whine and be bratty. which is funny cuz my mom loves kids and has worked with them for years. i certainly didnt share that same passion till now!
when justin and i first got married i was ACHING for a baby! every month i would cry when i wasnt pregnant... sounds absurd... but it was just such a big desire of mine that it hurt when i couldnt follow through with it, even if it wasnt best at the time. have you ever wanted something so bad and when it didn't happen you were sad? same here......i almost felt like i had lost a baby even though i never had one in the first place. furthermore i was going through a very emotional time the first few months of marriage so i am sure that contributed to the distress.
i remember a lot of people thinking it was a bit early to be pregnant since we had only been married 4 months, but it worked out fine for us and we are happy it happened that way. of course if we hadnt gotten pregnant we probably would have taken a nice long trip to hawaii this past summer. Which we will have to reschedule for some time in the next four or five years. (= but we really have no regrets and in no time there will be another sweetness to adore.... i dont know if we are going to be able to handle it! we can barely contain ourselves with dahlia!! (=
Venessa on Oct 26, 2006 5:00pm
I know what you mean...sometimes after Aloria has nursed and she's fallen asleep in my arms, I think, "I should put her down so I can get some work around the house done," but instead, I usually just want to stare at her...and then sometimes she opens her eyes and looks at me and then smiles like, "hey mom, it's you!" I love that even more!!!!!