Life is a journey. So many people have said that, but I am going to repeat it anyhow. I find it to be such a true statement. Everyday is an adventure and I experience the unknown and the predictable within just moments of each other. Sometimes I fall down, sometimes I take two steps forward...and sometimes I just stumble along. I am never quite prepared for how some situation will change my perspective or my heart, bu it does. I cannot control what happens in life, but I can choose to have hope and grace and love through it all.
Growth is exciting to me. In the same way that dahlia and valen constantly ask me if they are any taller, "measure me, measure me!"... so exciting to see yourself changing and to know that things won't ever be boring or the same as yesterday. Tomorrow is another day and is full of God's mercies!
I had some tests done this last week. When the doctor came in to discuss the results I was in a bit of a daze. The whole experience reminded me so much of the day we found out about Augustine. The room was similar, the smell was the same... I felt like I was transported back in time. Only this time it was about me, not my baby. The man looked at me and the first thing out of his mouth was, "There is no easy way to tell you this... you have cancer". When he first said that it didn't really register. He kept talking and I was listening, however I don't remember much of what he said. After many appointments it is confirmed that I do indeed have breast cancer. I will be seeing an oncologist next Wednesday to decide on the action plan. It seems quite aggressive so we don't want to waste any time.
I am optimistic that we can take care of it, but that doesn't mean it will be fun. This really changes our lives right now. A new season is already beginning with Dahlia starting school. I will be out and about much more, even more so with Dr appointments and such. But the good news is that everything that life throws at me is a chance for me to trust God even more and to let it shape me into something beautiful. I am holding on to that hope! Not to mention the hope that this life is temporary and everything that we go through is just part of the journey to forever.
Thank you for all of the support and prayers and love from those of you who have already heard. We are so grateful to have so many caring people in our life!