Sep 26, 2009
We enjoyed the memorial service for Augustine this past wednesday night with some family and friends. justin and i are both very glad that we decided to do this. it didnt happen till three weeks after his birth, but it actually was good timing for our family emotionally and physically. as you can see he was a very chubby and beautiful boy! I wasnt able to really look at his photos without crying until a few days ago... but now i keep them by my bed and say goodnight to him. i am enjoying this. he was and is still a blessing. here is a poem i wrote within about a week after his birth.
into my arms they placed you so i could love your life,
i will treasure every breath you breathed with me that night.
there was so much purpose in the short time you were allowed
you brought me joy, you brought me peace, in those moments somehow.
but my heart was slowly breaking to watch you while you slept,
i knew that time was ending and you would not wake up.
things were rather peaceful as we saw the setting sun,
fading into the night just as you had gone.
although the tears were dripping as we laid you down to sleep,
we loved you and knew the lord your soul will keep.
Sep 20, 2009
We are having a memorial service for Augustine this Wednesday at 7pm at our church.
620 Franklin Street SE, Olympia WA 98501
Anyone and everyone is welcome to join us. We look forward to celebrating his life with you all. Childcare will be provide for children under 6.
Sep 09, 2009
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Dahlia decided to add to the excitement of this week by falling off a chair on Tuesday night and breaking her clavicle (not to be confused with clavichord). It hurt her a lot at the time but after a rough first night she's doing a lot better. The doctor said it's the most common bone to break and it's the easiest to deal with. She just has to wear a sling for a week or so while the bone reconnects and then she just has to take it easy for a few more weeks after that. She didn't have to have it set or anything, it will just grow back together in time.
Sep 04, 2009
Augustine Ezra Paul Bodeutsch came into our world September 3rd 2009 @ 6:38pm. he weighed 8lbs 10oz!! He was absolutely beautiful and precious. He lived less than one hour, but it was a beautiful hour that we enjoyed very much. He came and went so peacefully, it was truly a blessing.
The nurses brought him straight to my chest and never took him away from us. Justin and I were able to hold him and love him for a few hours. it was hard, but the whole experience was so lovely. There was the most beautiful sunset out our 14th story hospital room window while we were saying goodbye to him, it made things that much more peaceful. After three hours of being with him, we thought it was time to let him go. I didn't know how that was possible but somehow it was easier than I thought it would be. Two nurses came in and weighed him and took his footprints and handprints and dressed him up and took pictures of him... it was a nice transition time. after all that it seemed easier to let go. He just wasn't there anymore, it was just a body, his soul was in heaven. We gave him one last kiss and sent him away.
It might sound crazy, but we really were blessed by how everything happened. we are thankful to have had any time with him at all and thankful he didn't have to suffer. He simply went to sleep in my arms. What more could I ask for. Justin and I appreciate very much all the thoughts and prayers and messages we have received, we feel very loved and couldn't do this without you all supporting us. We are doing well considering. Dahlia and Valen are doing well too. Valen has no idea what is going on (he still thinks he can feel the baby kicking) and Dahlia seems to not be upset by it, just a little confused. We are looking forward to loving the two we still have here with us and seeing Augustine again someday in heaven.
No doubt God was and is holding us through this all, there is no way I could have had any strength on my own. I know there will be many hard days ahead, but as long as I can walk it with the Lord I will be OK.
Sep 03, 2009
It looks like today will be the big day for us. We're going to head up to the hospital (St. Joe's in Tacoma) at 1PM today. The Dr will get things moving from there. We'll keep this blog updated as things progress. Thanks again for the prayers and support of everyone. You guys have carried us through this for sure.
