have you heard that song "blessed be your name" ok there are probably many songs with that title, but this one in particular has a verse that is different. we were singing this song at church on sunday and i started feeling overwhelmed by how much God has blessed my life over the past five years and how i am so undeserving. he has continually met mine and justins needs at just the right times and carried us through stressful times bringing us closer together and more full of character and wisdom. so i was a little choked up while starting to sing this song because of everything God has done for us.... then at one part in the song it says " you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, blessed be your name". oh my gosh, i burst into tears. (i rarely cry) at the same time of feeling overwhlemed by Gods goodness i was overwhlemed by how true that statement was in our lives right now. it wasnt a depressing feeling or a "why me God" feeling, but just at this point in my life, i have so much to be thankful for how could i turn my back on God and be angry with him, after all he has done for us and me being so undeserving in the first place. questioning his reasons or timing just doesnt seem necessary, he is God and i am not. he can take away if he wants to. he sees the big picture and is more concerned about bringing glory to his name and working in me as well. what kind of a father would he be if he didnt allow some difficult times to shape us and make us more like him. its amazing how even if he takes away, we can still be thankful and have joy and trust him with our lives.

here is the entire song....

Blessed be your name

In the land that is plentiful

Where the streams of abundance flow

Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name

When I'm found in the desert place

Though I walk through the wilderness

Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,

I turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say...

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name

When the sun's shining down on me

When the world's all as it should be

Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name

On the road marked with suffering

Though there's pain in the offering

Blessed be your name

You give and take away

You give and take away

My heart will choose to say

Lord, Blessed be your name

long story short, we are moving. Into a better house in a great neighborhood closer to town. so excited about this! next wednesday we should get the keys and then by saturday be moved in. we are overwhelmed by this great opportunity and feel very blessed. this is the only picture we have of the house, we forgot the camera when we were taking the tour of the inside, so more to come!

for a while now i have been really wondering if delivering in seattle at the swedish medical center is really necessary. It will be very inconvenient to drive up there when i am in labor. the other option is being induced, which i am very much opposed to. It seems that either olympia or tacoma would have some sort of people equipped for difficult situations... right? and furthermore our boy is going to be fine so what is the big deal! (:

so at our appointment yesterday in seattle we mentioned to the doctor our thoughts and she agreed that should be fine as long as the hospital here is fine with our situation also. so i am talking to my former midwife who knows of a good doctor here that would take me. we are transfering our care to the midwife but also having the other doctor there at the birth that she thinks is awesome. I am SO relieved that we will be working with her and in our own town! two more months to go!

A friend of a friend came and prayed for us recently. She believes that she has recently been given the gift of healing and i was on her heart. ever since that moment i have had a different faith that before. more sure of the fact we will see a beautiful healthy child someday soon! please continue to pray with us for a miracle, This boy has a place in our lives and we are fighting for him!

i enjoy every day that he talks to me and moves around in my womb, it is so wonderful. i can already snuggle him as well as dahlia and valen! they both pray everyday and not even because i ask them, just randomly will come and touch my belly and hug and smooch it and then pray for him, too precious! dahla is very excited to see him and show him her room (: