i havent been out of the house since sunday. with that in mind...... last night i had to run to the store and pick up a couple things... first i went to target then to fred meyer. doesnt sound very exciting i admit, but i thoroughly enjoyed the experience. being able to talk with random people just made my day. on the way home i had so much energy. i felt like scrubbing the tub, doing the dishes and even hanging up all my clothes that have been on our bedroom floor since i gave birth! well that isnt entirely true....when i am trying to figure out what i am going to wear i usually toss them all onto the bed and then when i am done back onto the floor. its a vicous cycle! anyways, my point is as much as i like being with dahlia all day, i do miss being social. and not just social with my friends.... i really enjoy going anywhere really, just so i can talk with the world and see all kinds of people! i loved working in the public at my previous jobs... it really made me come alive! it also helps me to see the big picture and how many people need God!! so when i am all cooped up in the house not interacting with others besides my family, i feel purposeless.... even though my main purpose right now is my family! raising dahlia is a huge purpose.... teaching her about life and love and God... giving her a chance to live a beautiful life full of purpose herself (= i think its just an adjustment that i am still adjusting to. i guess i will have to put as much as i can into dahlia first and then everyone else gets whatever is left over (= she needs me so much... and its nice to be needed!!!!

I don't know what the average mommy does with their baby all day long, but I like to sing to mine. They aren't real songs at all, just songs about how I feel about her or am feeling at that moment. The tunes range from Santa Claus is comin to town to oh my darlin Clemintine. Of course I replace those words with my own. Oh my Dahlia Jade Bodeutsch or Dahlia Jade is comin to town. They are pretty catchy.  (= I've caught justin chiming in as well. I also talk a lot to her. She doesn't usually talk back to me, but I get a smile now and then. I like to tell her how cute she is most of the time.... and when she is droppin a bomb in her diaper, I like to give her encouragement... kinda like a coach or something. She seems stressed out, screaming and grunting! it's so funny!! I'd be really bored if I didn't talk to her all day long! So it's really for my sanity that I do it!