maybe everyone already has heard of this, but i just did. i think it is so great and just wanted to let you all know.

thanks to all of you who took the poll about poo (= i guess i was just wondering how comfortable people are being in awkward situations with someone they love. i wasnt surprised by how many of you said that you would rather not, but then again i was. before i got married i never thought i would let myself have no makeup on and feel ok about it, i never thought i would be able to pick my nose or poo or burp or anything like that in front of someone i was trying to be attractive to.  but the nice thing is, justin doesnt care at all, and that is so freeing! maybe i would be like that even i was married to someone else, but i am not sure. when something bothers me i just asking myself, should this bother me? am i being ridiculous? am i worrying for nothing? obviously this issue doesnt seem very important in the big scheme of things, but i think it may be another analogy for other parts of my life. i guess i just want to be totally real and be myself, and sometimes that may seem like i bare too much. i feel like if i can be myself in my private life  then maybe that will roll over into every other area of my life and i will be unafraid to be authentic with everyone.i dont want to be trying to be what i think others want me to be or what the media or tv tells me is how i should be, why does anyone listen to them? i am not impressed if i feel like someone says and does all the "in" stuff. yes i want to be culturally relevant and relatable but i think being real without being tainted by the "fake" is more relevant and necessary than all this hype and over emphasis on surfacy junk.

comcast forgot to turn off the inhibitor for the cable, so we have way too many channels now so i have beenchecking out a few more things than i normally would, and it is so not necessary and doing anything good for me, i do like a few things but i got to be careful i dont get sucked in! we told the guy who was over here to turn it off and he said he would but that was a week ago.... i am a better person without it!

anyways, in regards to the beginning of this entry...we may have the most comfortable relationship that i know of... but then again maybe you are comfortable with not being comfortable doing uncomfortable things (=and that is ok, i just need it a different way.so that brings me to my next question....

Can you poo in front of other peoples spouses?

ok just joking, but i actually do have another poll on the side bar. vote please! 

before i was a mom i thought about the things that i wouldnt look forward to as a mom.... like cleaning up puke. well the day came where i had to face that with dahlia. we were driving home from the store and we were a few minutes away and i turned around to look at her and she started puking.... nothing lead up to it at all. she didnt even act like anything was wrong when she was actually puking. the only reason why i think she started crying was because she was drenched in chunky slimy puke... sorry for the grossness (= after we got home she was totally fine and didnt seem sick at all that whole evening. i have no idea what made her throw up, but i definitely dont want it happening again. (= i was gagging when she was too. i had to have justin take out the carseat because i was about to puke just being around it. i have such a weak stomach. spit up is one thing, but puke is a whole nother story! 

i actually have a huge fear of puking. one year i had food poisoning 4 times... four times in  a twelve month period! i know that i crazy. i was throwing up for 24 hours straight, not fun at all! i wanted to die(not an exaggeration! ) so if i ever feel a tummy ache coming on i start getting a little paranoid that i might be up all night puking, but thankfully i havent been that sick in three years.

the whole moving experience was a bit crazy. justin was supposed to pick up the u-haul around 930 but didnt actually get it till 1030, so we couldnt start loading till about 11. so that set us back a bit. we had a few people to help but it was very cold and we have a lot of stuff. we actually got rid of quite a few things on craigslist this past month in preparation for the move, but still had too much. also when justin and i moved into this house, both sets of parents brought over lots of stuff that they had been storing for us for years, so that and the fact that we just keep everything (we are changing that) made things overwhelming. so on saturday when it looked like there was no way we were going to fit everything in the truck (the largest you can rent) i got a little stressed. we were already running a couple hours behind schedule, the landlord was about to come by to do a walk-thru and the house was still a mess. thankfully we only had to take one or two loads to the goodwill/dump and the landlord gave us our whole deposit back even though she didnt see the place in its final state! i was so grateful for that. once we got here to olympia everything got unloaded within a couple hours but then our house was so full we couldnt walk through our living room. dahlia certainly wasnt going to settle down in time for bed, so we didnt get our hope too high that she would sleep by herself. she seemed to like the house but did not want to go to sleep. so we let her sleep with us... well she slept but not so much justin and i. the next night she went down just like normal!! sooo excited about that!!!! valen of course is totally fine, didnt even phase him at all.

we love so many things about this place, it is better in just about every way compared to our previous place. i mean we really did like the house we just moved from, but now that we are here, we are so glad to be. i will post some pictures as soon as it looks descent. the best part are the windows. there is a giant window in the living room and it lets in so much light. that is one thing we didnt like about our house in vancouver, not enough light coming in since the sun came up on the opposite side. also the living room isnt as big so it actually is warm! the kitchen has better counter space and cupboard space and the laundry room is inside the house! oh and our bathroom and walk in closet situation is great! i will defintely post photos of that soon. the things that i dont care for are trivial so i wont mention them (if you are curious i can complain in private to you) (=

anyways, glad to be here, feels a little lonely not having any friends or family, well justins family, but they are actually in california with his sister who just had a baby, so for now, no family. but i am sure we will meet some people as soon as we get to go to church.

goodnight!

thanks so much to those who helped, we wouldnt be alive if it werent for you! (=