i dont know where i have gotten all of this energy!!? since being pregnant with dahlia and then giving birth and then breastfeeding and then getting pregnant again and then giving birth to valen... etc etc... i have never had this much energy! it is really odd. and it isnt the coffee talking either!

i dont sleep well at night so i am confused how i have any energy at all. if i sit too long i get tired but if i keep going there is no stopping me! its like someone has been giving me speed unbeknownst to me... im not complaining though, it is really great! usually this time of year i get a little bummed and dont want to do anything, but so far so good this time! it is probably due to the fact that the last 3 or 4 years have been so busy with pregnancy and birthing that my body is finally back to its original state (better than) and it feels good!!i feel like i am completely away from the postpartum blues business, hooray!

but for some reason i dont have the energy to clean the shower(=

today dahlia and i were looking at an elephant picture and she mentioned "he has a big nose" then looks at me and says "you have big nose too"....ahh the honestly children have ... and the tact that comes with it (=

i used to be so self conscious about my nose in high school, i felt that is was so huge and it made me ugly... but after high school i remember not really thinking that anymore... but it was so silly. there are many different shapes and sizes of noses on everyone. there are beautiful people with large noses and beautiful people with small noses, neither one is the right one and i think society is finally appreciating the different types of faces out there and not insisting we all be this perfect look that "they"decided is pretty... i have grown to love my face and like that God made me unique and that he is beautifying me more on the inside every day, which is where it counts anyhow.

i have taken a few personality profiles since high school and they all have been fairly accurate. i really enjoy trying to figure out how other people are too.

well i never have taken the Meyers Briggs test so i took it today, it was so right on. i know some people hate these things, but if you read about my personality, i think it makes sense that i do like them (= this description is good but missing a few things which i dont think it would have picked up on from the questions. or maybe there is a little part of me that doesnt fit in a box... 

the website is www.kisa.ca/personality if you do take it let me know what letters you are!

my combination was ENFP 

Curious, energetic, adaptable, and creative. Conversations with ENFPs can be very circular as they excitedly move from one topic to the next, making connections and associations. Unconventional and occasionally irreverent, they pride themselves on their uniqueness and originality.  ENFPs see significance in all things and prefer to keep lots of options open.

ENFPs Tend To Be:

• Creative, resourceful & naturally curious
• Highly diplomatic consensus builders
• Perceptive about people; great collaborators
• Enthusiastic & inspiring communicators
• Able to "think outside the box" & see possibilities

ENFPs get bored rather easily and are not naturally good at following things through to completion. Accordingly, they should avoid jobs which require performing a lot of detailed, routine-oriented tasks. They will do best in professions which allow them to creatively generate new ideas and deal closely with people. They will not be happy in positions which are confining and regimented.

this blue part is from the same test but a different description...totally me!!!

for the first time in my adult life i feel like i am more myself than anything. dealing with root issues of things in my past has helped. slowly changing habits or character traits that were a result of certain situations and people along the way has been refreshing as well. i think being in a new city and having a fresh start has been very good for me. not feeling the pressure and the expectations or the assumptions of others who have known me a long time expecting me to be a certain way and not letting me out of the box i had been put in long ago. i dont feel that weight like i did before and the confusion of who am i compared to who do others already think me to be.... does that make sense?

ok this next link is an extended version of this personality...it is so crazy how much this describes me in many different areas... if you care to read it. http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html

since moving to olympia we joined a chruch that is somewhat new and thriving. we just hired a new pastor who is actually from vancouver washington... they have three small children and i attend his wifes small group. anyhow, we are so stoked to welcome them here and see where this church is going.

one of the things justin is a part of this week is introducing people to the idea of "advent conspiracy". maybe you havent heard of it... basically it is an organiization who challenges other christians to be more relational with giving and not be such consumerists especially at christmas time.  it sounds totally ludicrous to me that people go into debt during christmas time and that people keep doing it over and over again... i know the high that comes from buying things and i have had to turn my back on my old ways of throwing away money, but why do we want to give a gift to someone who is probably going to return it anyways, or be disappointed and never use or wear it. it just seems silly to waste money when that hard earned money could be doing so much more.

i dont understand consumerism... furthermore, i dont understand christian consumerism. christmastime gets so nutty i dont even like going out of the house in the month of december... might get killed by consumerists! everyone is in such a hurry and trying to buy buy buy and people dont seem to care about anyone else in that moment.and ironically it is about loving others...

maybe this comes easier for me than some since i grew up with not much and we didnt get very many chhristmas gifts each year. but as i have grown up into my twenties each holiday it wasnt about the gifts or how many i got, i just enjoyed being with my family and hanging out.  i understand wanting to give something to someone you love, but at what expense? 

i will post a picture of the whole room once it is complete.