so i REALLY REALLY need to go to the dentist!! no, seriously. i knew it had been a long time but i really didnt remember how long until the other day. i have not been to the dentist in EIGHT years! this should not be! the last time i went i didnt have any new cavities but then again most of my teeth are filled already from when i was little (= i do remember the hygenist telling me that if i didnt get gum surgery soon my teeth will probably fall out... or have serious issues. (i have receding  gums) so i was balling when he told me that and he was so cold hearted he didnt even care.... just kept on jabbering on.

but i dont hate dentists really, i just dont like how they make me feel. for instance, scraping my teeth with a metal hook is hardly something to look forward to! i cringe just thinking about this. i mean i might just have to request some laughing gas or novacane to get through that whole process(= and also when they give you the novacane... yikes... i didnt know what was actually going on till i was like 19 or 20. i wondered why they would jiggle my cheak and put so much pressure on it..... because they are shooting me up with a gigantic needle thats all!! i am so glad i didnt know that is what they were doing, i would have freaked out!

i am just a little nervous this time because it has been so long, there has got to be some issues in there! i got this coupon in the mail the other day for a local dentist office for $125 cleaning and x-rays and a free teeth whitening. but i am scared to just waltz into some dentist that i dont know, what if he is not sensitive to my needs? what if he doesnt care about emotional women? (= what if he (or she) goes against my wishes and scrapes my teeth! ahhhh i dont know if i will get through this without a tear. am i crazy? does anyone else have this fear!? there has got to be lots of people like me out there..... or am i just a nut case???